new years eve.

here comes 2010

are you ready for it? because i don't think i am. i hope you're all indulging in some well-deserved celebrations and festivities.

year.

i would like to take a moment to be completely awestruck by the fact that tomorrow is the very last day of 2009. it has been a decade since the start of the new millennium, the Y2K craze, yada yada yada.

looking back to New Years Eve 1999 (being in 5th grade), i can so perfectly remember spending it in my best friend's apartment; making confetti to throw around at midnight and shaking Coke and Sprite cans to pretend we're having champagne only to realize we shook it too much with no shooting liquid in the end. has it really already been a decade since then? the days of Buffy the Vampire Slayer & Angel, memorable American teen movies, Baby-G watches, Hit Me Baby One More Time & Genie in a Bottle - occurring more or less ten years ago?! they all seem so - insignificant now. as will today ten years down the line. i'm sometimes scared to blink in case i find myself ten years ahead. twenty-one years and i still haven't become accustomed to the passage of time and my dearest friend - change.

minus my constant anxiety attacks and life in denial, with tomorrow comes yet another New Years Eve. the passage of time is inevitable. it must be, change is after all the only constant in this world.

x

don't you forget about me.

i ♥ The Breakfast Club. one of the iconic films of the 80's

it's love, not santa clause.

it's official, i'm in love with Summer. i love her smile. i love her hair. i love her knees. i love how she licks her lips before she talks. i love her heart-shaped birth mark on her neck. i love it when she sleeps.

i just watched 500 Days of Summer; one of the cutest Indie flicks i have watched in a while. what distinguishes Indie romantic comedies from the mainstream ones? a slightly more realistic dose of false hope and Hollywood-only moments. most of all, they seem more real. anyways, it wasn't anything spectacular but i enjoyed the simplicity and felt the casting was spot on! besides, im getting a little tired of the monotonous work Jennifer Anniston does with her romantic comedies. this one was definitely something fresh and quirky.

Tom, i know you think she was the one, but i don't. next time you look back, i think you should look again.

x

always mine.

dashing through the snow.

this is way (a couple days) overdue, but wishing you all a very Merry Christmas. mine was pretty low key with a simple Italian family dinner outing. i hope you all enjoyed the festivities with loved ones and those special and dear in your lives. not to mention gorging on fattening food and alcohol; all part of the Christmas cheer.

it's been a whirlwind of events lately; several outings, meetings and party-ings with old friends whilst enjoying the warm weather i have missed so very much. it's strange to return to the life you once had - though still fresh and vivid in my memory but now permanently regarded as a thing of the past. coming back to it feels like i had never left, everything fitting back together so perfectly; it's effortless and simple.

what was once my entire world, is now just an escape from the real world which i must continuously return to at the end of each holiday. funnily enough, i don't really mind returning to the real world anymore. it seems to have uncovered a glimmer of hope. knowing my luck and my history, i'm probably just hanging on to false hope as always. it's quite hard and frustrating being cynical and a dreamer all in one.

the beautiful KL skyline from my balcony. oh majestic buildings and blinding lights, i have missed you so.

one of the most beautiful buildings in the world; the Petronas Twin Towers and a little glimpse of Zouk.

Christmas decorations at Pavilion. who says Malaysia is a Muslim country?

real.