oh my days.

the monotony by which these days have been going by is starting to scare and irritate me. this past week has consisted of nothing but extremely long days (well, nights actually) of work, work and more work. but i'm only TWO days away! i finally hand in my dissertation on Friday! what's next you ask? i will give up everything i have to be able to answer that question. for some reason, summer just doesn't seem like summer right now.

the rest of tonight will consist of dinner whilst watching that latest episode of Gossip Girl followed by a quick shower and then back to work for a long long night.

x

D&G meet Johannson.

heart skipped a beat.

breathe.

yes! i am done with my Development of Marketing Strategy exam and it's a relief like no other! two hardcore days of preparation and three continuous hours of non-stop scribbling on six pages (front and back!) of my answer booklet. i don't think i ever want to write again. ever! oh what would i do without my keyboard. so that is now three down with one to go.

dissertation, here i come. summer is just 5000 words away.

x

new beginnings.

i am so pumped right now! things have been going well lately with a boost that i quite desperately needed at this point in time. i do hope everything works out; it seems to be heading in that direction but only time will tell. and there's not much time left now. this weekend consists of some hardcore revising for my Development of Marketing Strategy exam on Monday followed by two weeks of intense work on my dissertation project due on the 7th of May. then it's all over - with hopefully better things to come. how three years trickled down to two weeks, i'll never know.

on a side note, the weather has been beautiful and April is over in another week! crazy. i hope finals aren't killing everyone.

x

night time.

night time, sympathize
i've been working on white lies
so i'll tell the truth, i'll give it up
to you

spring fling.

i haven't left the house this whole week, becoming a hermit to get all my work done but i did spend a beautiful week in London last week and was especially pleased with the weather. it lead to a little picnic lunch in Hyde Park. some sushi from Wasabi, salad from M&S, bright rays of sunshine and only a slight chill in the air. hello Spring! i have missed thee.

x

april.

um..HOW on earth is it April already?! and that too half-way through April. will it really be summer in one more month (erratic British weather aside)? where did this year go? i am done with Uni in three more weeks. i don't really know how i feel about it at this point. i have far too much going on over the next three weeks (and even after) for some time to reflect. i guess it won't hit me till summer actually arrives.

but i'm slowly and steadily getting there. i'm done with the two assignments that i have to hand in next week and could not be more relieved. it's this warm and invigorating satisfaction. sigh, but i now have my dissertation and an exam to get through. some good stuff in between which i'm super excited about as well but i don't want to get ahead of myself and am desperately praying, keeping my fingers crossed, preparing, you name it!

it's almost time. and i think i'm ready.

x

time and time again.

OHMYGOD! i am officially done with Uni on the 7th of May. gjksdjfsdujfiosjgkglks! advice on life directions anyone? all comments welcome and appreciated.

welsh escapades.

i have been completely ignoring my blog lately, mainly because of my new-found obsession with Tumblr. yes, i finally decided to make a Tumblr. i'm quite intrigued by it because it's not a place where people 'write' necessarily - it's more about posting; anything and everything i guess. but short posts nonetheless. another reason for the neglect is that i spent all of last week finishing off an assignment i had due on Fri followed by spending the weekend with family in Cardiff, Wales. a beautiful and quaint place with incredibly polite people. i have to admit, i could never live in such a small town with a lack of tall buildings, city lights and big crowds but it was a nice little getaway; beautiful scenery, fresh air and a lot of sheep! i'm planning another trip in May once all my assignments, projects and exams are over and done with.

x

meet me on the equinox.

it's apparently Vernal Equinox today. for those of you who don't know, an Equinox occurs twice a year when the sun crosses the plane of the equator making night and day approximately equal length all over the Earth. it also marks the start of Spring! however, today was so very gloomy with gray skies and a constant drizzle throughout the day. WHERE is Spring?!

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to tumbl or not to tumbl.

after spending a decent amount of my days browsing through Tumblr, i'm thinking of starting my own. what do you think? i'm just too easily distracted by shiny, pretty things (and pictures).

x

set fire to the third bar.

i find the map and draw a straight line
over rivers, farms, and state lines
the distance from 'A' to where you'd be
it's only finger-lengths that i see
i touch the place where I'd find your face
my finger in creases of distant dark places

i hang my coat up in the first bar
there is no peace that i've found so far
the laughter penetrates my silence
as drunken men find flaws in science

their words mostly noises
ghosts with just voices
your words in my memory
are like music to me

i'm miles from where you are,
i lay down on the cold ground
i, i pray that something picks me up
and sets me down in your warm arms

after i have travelled so far
we'd set the fire to the third bar
we'd share each other like an island
until exhausted, close our eyelids
and dreaming, pick up from
the last place we left off
your soft skin is weeping
a joy you can't keep in

i'm miles from where you are,
i lay down on the cold ground
and i, i pray that something picks me up
and sets me down in your warm arms

i'm miles from where you are,
i lay down on the cold ground
and i, i pray that something picks me up
and sets me down in your warm arms

Snow Patrol ft Martha Wainwright

hmm..just some things going on in my mind right now. this sums it up just perfectly. that is all.

x

hello, hello.

if you haven't already seen Lady Gaga's new video for Telephone featuring Beyonce, you absolutely must! it's 10 minutes long to begin with but is so amazingly creative. i love these two, it's a collaboration made in outer space! who else do you think Gaga should collaborate with? i think Rihanna and her would be pretty crazy; also Gwen Stefani.

x

dying is an art.

dying
is an art, like everything else.
i do it exceptionally well.

i do it so it feels like hell.
i do it so it feels real.
i guess you could say i've a call.

Sylvia Plath

i'm still procrastinating my International Marketing assignment. i have managed to get a start on it but distractions get in the way, one after the other. i hope to get through at least half of it by the end of tomorrow but i don't really see it happening. there's nothing wrong with planning ahead eh? Easter Break is in two weeks, though i wouldn't really classify it as a break. my mind is so crazed right now by all that needs to get done, including a much postponed trip to Wales to visit my aunt and cousins.

happy working, my fellow Uni students.

x

queen bee.

yes, Gossip Girl is back on!

warhol.

time not wasted.

i am having major issues getting through my International Marketing assignment! to be fair, i got a good bit of it done yesterday; the structure, appendices and i know my approach. i just cannot seem to put all the pieces together! i have been wasting (who was it that said that the time you enjoy wasting is time not wasted?) my time by watching CNN, random documentaries and going through pages after pages of beautiful Tumblr pictures - yes, my new obsession! why is it that i can only work well under pressure? looks like introducing Innocent Smoothies to the Malaysian market will have to wait a little while longer.

i am however extremely happy about the stunning weather this past week. bright sunshine and clear, blue skies. if only the temperature would kindly increase a few degrees as it's still pretty chilly outside. i cannot wait to wear Spring/Summer clothes! and it's about time, we're already into the first week of March. yes, March! it feels like i'm writing every post in a new month because i keep saying, 'it's already January', 'it's already February' and alas! it is now March. Easter Break begins in exactly 3 weeks. i've got 3 assignments, 1 dissertation project and 1 exam before everything is officially o v e r.

on a random note: an incredibly interesting article i came across during my procrastination about men today and their increasing levels of immaturity and general reluctance to 'grow up' -- The Basement Boys.

x

that is so fetch.

Disney + Mean Girls = Genius!

i will never ever stop loving this movie. it reminds me of High School days, those petty obsessions and all the girly sleepovers.

x

delicate.

it's not that we're scared
it's just that it's delicate
♥

my soul.

stars in our eyes.

i had a wonderful wonderful weekend in Londres, including a trip to Camden Market, a chocolate making workshop and a Lady Gaga concert; complete with good company (make that great company). why am i living in Birmingham again? God knows! here are some captures from my weekend.

Lady Gaga: The Monster Ball Tour

Chocolate Making Workshop

Brick Lane Market

i forgot to mention the short trip i made to Brick Lane Market on a wet Sunday morning; very vintage with more drool-worthy food stalls. i now understand why people in this country are so obese.

Camden Market

i would just like to mention that this is now my new obsession (apart from the amazing food i gorged on at the Market). it is shoe heaven for any Aldo fans at huge huge discounts.

i think i'm falling in love with London.

x

for blue blue skies.

maybe not blue skies but the weather has been rather pleasant these last two days and BBC Weather (yes, i'm a dork. i check the weather everyday) forecasts a wonderful weekend ahead! this is especially uplifting since i'm off to London for the weekend and we all know it's a tad warmer down there, not to mention a much anticipated Lady Gaga concert on Saturday at the O2 Arena.

is this really the last weekend of February? is it already March next week? that leaves about a month and a half till all my assignment deadlines, two months till exams and three months till the end of Uni. i know i ask this all the time but seriously, where did the time go? my constant complaining, bitching and disliking this place; counting down the days till i am out of here and being so anxious about what lies ahead. at this moment, it's bittersweet. not so much me leaving Birmingham because believe me, i could not be happier about no longer rotting away in this pathetic excuse of a city (oh the number of brain cells i have lost!). it's an amalgam of several things. after having my life planned out for me for the last twenty-one years, i no longer have something waiting for me. it's daunting, hell yes. not knowing where i'm going, what i'm doing or my future. it's frustrating, yes. i must resort to the incredibly overused cliche; life is not easy.

but how wonderful would it be if it were?

x

sugar rush.

one bag of Asda milk chocolate cookies. one bag of Tesco milk chocolate cookies. one box of Asda milk chocolate chunk cookie mix. one box of Betty Crocker chocolate chip cookie mix. several bags of handmade chocolates. Hotel Chocolat Milky hot chocolate. one box of Godiva chocolates. one large red rose. that would sum up my weekend. yes, a sugar rush indeed.

you and me could write a
bad romance

i'm going to see Lady Gaga in London on Saturday!

x

i believe.

valentine.

Happy Valentine's Day everyone ♥ it has been a beautifully crisp sunny day today; a perfect setting to celebrate the day of love. unfortunately, i have been stuck in Birmingham over a very dull Valentine's weekend. but it's lovely to see the celebrations going on everywhere and they have definitely lifted my spirits.

here is a very interesting article i came across on CNN about love and the bodily functions associated with it from a scientific point of view. but for the more hopeless romantics, i leave you with my favourite poem; Variations on the Word Sleep by Margaret Atwood

I would like to watch you sleeping,
which may not happen.
I would like to watch you,
sleeping. I would like to sleep
with you, to enter
your sleep as its smooth dark wave
slides over my head

and walk with you through that lucent
wavering forest of bluegreen leaves
with its watery sun & three moons
towards the cave where you must descend,
towards your worst fear

I would like to give you the silver
branch, the small white flower, the one
word that will protect you
from the grief at the center
of your dream, from the grief
at the center. I would like to follow
you up the long stairway
again & become
the boat that would row you back
carefully, a flame
in two cupped hands
to where your body lies
beside me, and you enter
it as easily as breathing in

I would like to be the air
that inhabits you for a moment
only. I would like to be that unnoticed
& that necessary.

x